Confusion.

Don't know whats going on. Don't know if its true or if it's all a lie. Don't know weather to stay or go. Don't know weather it's good or bad. I just don't know anymore. Why is it all so confusing. I wish everything in life was easy. I wish there were no hard choices.

I walked into school today expecting the worse. I thought I would cry the whole day. I did not know that I woul be fine. That we would be..

But the part im still off balance with is. Do I even want everything to be fine? Do I want to go back to this? Do I want to be friends or more with the one thing that stomps on my heart the most?

Wish I did not have feelings, wish my heart would just let go, but then again I want nothing more that to just be with this person. I hate him yet love him with ALL OF MY HEART.

I know I am young and shoul not say all this, and this should not be such a big deal. But. LOVE is messed up and so confusing I wish I could not feel it.